Just realised, your situation perfectly illustrates something I suspected at the time. Now we have to set up appointments with her to see her children but she will only give my mom 5 minutes. His 30 day supply barely lasts him 2 weeks now and in any given month, I feel like Im living with 3 different people medicated, crashing and clean. Adderall was supposed to help me get through school. We started arguing a lot, she was very tired, irritable, uncaring.. distant.. She broke it off with me. Thatsunclear. I have a hard time being patient with him, but I am working on it. Will I be just in feeling this way? The best thing for right now is to try to calm yourself down. Then after about a month of not speaking to him I became sad. In my opinion I feel its toxic. I have been putting up with this for months, spending a good portion of the time crying. I started to read more about adderall and learned that in fact it is the result of taking these drugs. If a person is having an obsession with Adderall, then they might appear to be happy from the outside but they are shattered and stressed from inside. I couldnt even say I love you without forcing it and feeling as if it was a lie. Learning to accept the good and the bad just the same! I am willing to make changes and sacrifices on my end if it meant it would help him. Adderall is a medication that has been used to treat ADHD since 1996. I can never forgive my twin sister even though i have got my love back. MedHelp is not a medical or healthcare provider and your use of this Site does not create a doctor / patient relationship. Not if these individuals can put a thin band aid on deep wounds, wind up addicted, and ruining great loving relationships. I wish we had known the power of food at that time. So I restarted my own business, it is doing well, but I am back on adderal, I ran a plastic surgery company for a while, learned about hormones. The immediate effect in his personality was obvious; his only thought was excelling in his work, he lost emotion and humor, and he even told me he didnt love me anymore. Yep Adderall is the easy way to escape your feelings, but I know those feelings are still there Somewhere. I just made that my name because that's how I originally got my script. She then viciously responded with telling me she was on a spiritual journey, and I didnt understand. Everyone wants adderall. Lots of ADHDers have problems with forms and stupid questions, so it's really tough for them, but for a healthy person, it would be easy to fill in the forms with a bunch of lies. She told me she would never sleep because she was staying up all night to talk with him and then she would go to work during the day. The worst part is, a lot if the personality effects have worn off. I have no goals, no dreams, no desires. My name is Mrs joyce from united kingdom i got married at the age of 30 i have only one child and i was living happily .After 5 year of my marriage my husband behavior became so strange and i dont really understand what was going on, he packed out of the house to another woman i love him so much that i never dreams of losing him, i try my possible best to make sure that my husband get back to me but all to no avail i cry seeking for help i discussed it with my best friend and she promise to help me he told me of a man called PRINCE AYAWU, he is a very great man and a real man that can be trusted and there is nothing concerning love issues he cannot do that is why they call him the great doctor. I havent seen him since he quit and dont know if he even cares for me anymore. He is always angry at me, and if I voice my opinion and worries, he shuts down completely and ignores me. During this psychotic break, I incurred 5 misdemeanor charges and ruined my life. But the pushing/pulling of the relationship is hard. I roughed out the physical withdrawal, just went co Ive never done drugs like that Ive smoked weed a few times. You need to stop the drug obviously but need help. 2. The problem is, when it wears off, I feel the extreme of the Pursuer effect. Who am I? I did find a non stimulant alternative natural that controlled my adhd, but it is addictive, it is called Kratom. We never go on dates. I was going to kill him and kill myself after wards. I am going through a break up with who I thought to be the One. I contacted Dr.baba for a love spell and he totally helped me! At night though, I would crash so badly. Thanks for the kind words! When he becomes distant it is hard to not feel disconnected with him. Forgive yourselves. Some people looking for immediate effects may crush up their tablets and snort. I love her so much. I will say he has been on amphetamines low doses since he was young, his dad was innovative and a doctor, he went to harvard, dropped out and changed music in the USA forever. I have been taking adderall for 3 years, and I feel like I need to stop. He wrote his note in 2009 and I want to hear they he has learned to say no to conformity and been gentle with himself. We were in contact again a few weeks later and he tells me he realized he needs to get help, because of how he treated me in our relationship and that he doesnt know how he can be in any relationship due to the effects the drug has on him when hes on and off of it. At first I could focus so well in school, I felt like even the most boring of topics I was able to retain information from without diverted my attention to anything else. When I was about to graduate from college, I started to develop an eating disorder by the jolly old name of anorexia nervosa. This addiction is a soul sickness and I'm no good to a sick dying person when I'm full of self-pity rage , broken down and tired of their broken promises andthe angst of glimmers of hope that maybe this time is the one that will really work!!?? That he has take. I dont think its fair to me , I cant be selfish though and hes the one who holds the power so he doesnt have to make amends with me or make anything better all he has to do is focus on himself while getting my whole life and my whole self and energy to help him along the way while I am silent and powerless of a relationship that should be of equals. I get it, theyre busy. Adults are at greater risk of cardiovascular events than children, and the risk increases with each passing decade of life. Adderall is a lot like the drug in the movie LIMITLESS When I saw that movie I honestly thought that was adderall. Adderall, and frankly many of the ADD drugs are scum. The next thing that I know, he reconnected with an old friend from high school that he had a crush on years ago and they started to have an affair! Within 3 days time my Director called me at my place of work that i should resume working immediately. I have put on 10 lbs or so, don't care just mentioning it, and have been sleeping 10-14h a day. My story is long and I'd be happy to share if you desire. (Im a big believer on nature vs. Nurture and). it was not "horrendous" as one may think. Unfortunately everything can change in a heartbeat. A new drug called Sermorelin actually will cause you to grow younger and reverse a lot of the damage adderall does. Not so. Its when people take massive amountsnot orally, but by snorting it or mainlining it [for a stronger effect]that it becomes really neurotoxic.. Just adk 10th 2014. He holds all of the power . Our craziness with him went on for approx two years bf he died. You don't have to be this miserable or in this much pain. Ive recognized my errors in the relationship and have learned from them. he was special to me. She is divorced with 3 young children. You will find a way to get it done after you are adderall free. Anyway, I'm a senior now and I think in the last three years my personality and uniqueness have become non existent. Please, think before you mix these. Its like a mother leaving their child, its usually because the mother (as long as putting the child up for adoption in the first place was the case) is being irresponsible and reckless and cant be bothered with taking care of anything but themselves (poor care included). Fast forward 10 years and really I have no idea who I am. It will make you forget that giving someone space and time is healthy and god I wish I had never started taking this during a break-up. I am downright stupid useless & oblivious once it shortly wears off, worse than I'd be if I hadn't taken it. I know you want to help him, but it sounds like you also want to control him in a way you dont even understand. I would become engulfed in emotion and dramatically blame EVERYTHING on my boyfriend. She then responded with stating she is at peace, she loves herself, she is using her third eye (another concept I do believe in), and that she believed I was just scared of myself. why does an 8 year old know that? I had no clue what was going on until a month after he came back from United Kingdom.He proceeded to see both her and I until I caught him testing her one night. I dont feel any depth or emotional stuff, like if im around my family or Caleb & the conversation goes to something sad, or funny, or whatever kind of real feeling- & i just dont wanna hear about it. I recommend hormone replacement therapy, it will keep you healthy and young and looking great. I never know who Im coming home to because its such a sensitive subject, he isnt proactive about telling me when hes out, when he gets them, etc. He missed me and contacted me six months later. As we got older, we remained best friends, he was the shoulder to cry on when things got bad. I am Nikis cousin. Junior . We would spend six months living in NC then come back this way. My wife of 16 years would periodicly leave me when thing in our relationship would get to a point where she couldnt take the relationship anymore.This always devastated me and catch me completely off guard. Im sorry that was incredibly long I wanted to be as detailed as possible. Im married to a wonderful man, who is also very focused on his work. Ian Lecklitner is a staff writer at MEL Magazine. It seemed like some days he despised the sight of me. Comment. Hed rather avoid that shameful awkwardness indefinitely. (me, negative? I take the medication in the morning and I almost feel nothing for her. I told him we could be friends and I would break my rule of not having any guy friends, because I love him that much. I am on Ritalin, which is very similar to Adderall in its chemical makeup. My partner of 21 years began taking adderall prescribed for a sleep disorder and to boost his mood. Youre demanding a lot from this poor boy without adequately considering his perspective. I hate taking the medicine it makes me feel like crap, although I am able to listen to people easier it masks my true adhd loveable self. I dont know how true that is but i know that i was asked to get some materials for the witch doctor to make a spell that will reunite me and my fianc. Before fentanyl was the demon drug du jour, meth was seen as the worst, most destructive, most evil chemical you could find on the streets. My Boyfriend (at the time) and I had just recently started dating, and it was awesome! It's hard to think rationally when you're mind is focused on all the ways you think you have ruined your life. Maybe I could find some humor in my life again if I can manage to put this to the test in real life situations. I am here to tell you that is not all in your head. I felt for the people she was bullying. Many patients experience hearing voices too. This is an interesting article. He was like he has been thinking about his life and he feels like he doesnt know himself anymore and that he doesnt want to hurt me in the processes. 2 years ago he decided to take adderall for misguided weight loss reasons and got a legit. I got him back finally yes i did, but i can fail to say i did not use the normal way. I asked her why it was okay I stay put in the Midwest and rot in the sadness and depression my grandparents brought on me (I soak up their emotions being an empath and I have to mentally prepare in order to visit them) but it was okay for her to run away with this guy who she barely knows and live her life? I later found out it was because I was completely ignoring her. September 24, 2016 in Tell your story. So my mood and all pretty much stabilized and I was eating everything in site. He sent me some items that he told me to use to pray with within the 7 days he was casting the spell i asked him to help me cast with the materials he told me to provide to for the spell casting. Addiction is addiction no matter what the substance of abuse may be. However, I do know what it is like to lose your ability to function in life. Every problem in my relationship has been a result of vyvanse/adderall and alcohol. Adderall is a psycho-stimulant that contains amphetamine salts. Before I started taking Adderall, I was always clingy in my marriage. Out of sight, out of mind. When we first started dating I took it upon myself to visit a doctor about what was wrong with me. I blame the schools, the government and the all-encompassing greed of the pharmaceutical companies that peddle that shit to children in the interest of money. In the end all you do is ask yourself if youre crazy or not as you come down and take your sedative to smooth the rest of the day out. When I do his texting is off. Then repeat it in the morning. My parents have always told me that school is the most important thing in life, then everything else will fall into place.